Ive already experienced how to love and to be loved. But when i realized that it wont work out, i felt like "Damn! I'm Misunderstood. " - milking all the drama i could out of life. It felt very much like a fairytale. Now i cant believe i actually fooled myself into swallowing the tale i had spun in my own mind. the problem was, ME. ( I admit.)
Besides, i was hoping that things were going to get better one day, but i also LOVED THE THRILL. :) But i woke up one day and realized that it was REAL. And that i wasn't happy. What nagged at my brain was why i let it go on for so long? Then it hit me! (ouch!) It was because I didn't love my self enough, i didn't believe I deserved to be happy. Yes! I was a drama queen! but the bottom line was - i let the hurt drag on because i didn't consider fighting for my self.
And now, it made me realized that to truly fall in love and be happy is, I HAVE TO LOVE ME FIRST. Only then i can get my fairytale ending with less drama and tears.
Besides, i was hoping that things were going to get better one day, but i also LOVED THE THRILL. :) But i woke up one day and realized that it was REAL. And that i wasn't happy. What nagged at my brain was why i let it go on for so long? Then it hit me! (ouch!) It was because I didn't love my self enough, i didn't believe I deserved to be happy. Yes! I was a drama queen! but the bottom line was - i let the hurt drag on because i didn't consider fighting for my self.
And now, it made me realized that to truly fall in love and be happy is, I HAVE TO LOVE ME FIRST. Only then i can get my fairytale ending with less drama and tears.
